What I'm looking for is this person; I know what she looks like and how she acts, and I know that she can help me get my head back in the game and back to creating more content... thing is, though, I don't even know if she actually exists. I've never seen her specifically before or heard anything about a person ho fits her description, and I have no idea how to even begin looking [my situation greatly resembles this; uk.answers.yahoo.com/question/…
Believe me, I know how all this sounds, but I've hit rock-bottom by this point and I can't see any way back up.
See, over the last twelve months, I've come to realize my decline in actual art may be due in part to a feeling of... overwhelming. So often I see artwork on this site alone that FAR surpasses the skill of my own and I feel inspired to do that... but then I actually try to get that far and the process just overwhelms me, its not really that there's too much work involved -that's the case for practically everything with some level of quality, but really its more of an Attention thing.
My Asberger's Syndrome leaves me with TERRIBLE concentration. Oh sure, I'm not ADD, but my mind wanders a whole heck of a lot and if something takes to long in the creational process or if there're too many little problems distracting me, I lose interest and move onto another project. First realizing that I had this condition only helped to make things even slower for me [well, that and the printer/scanner problems]. I've got a lot of artwork from a year or two back that I still haven't uploaded, either because its too much trouble, or I don't think it's good enough to go through all that trouble.
Over the last twelve months, it occurred to me most of my life; I've basically been alone. Almost every single struggle I've endured I've endured by myself, mocked by my brothers and patronized by my parents [not always on my mom's account]; or just simply ignored.
Not too long ago, it occurred to me that I don't want to be alone anymore. After I got home from BronyCon, it occurred to me that I don't want to be Home anymore, either... well, not this soul-draining place I've called Home.
But I don't know how to move on, move out; my condition disables me where I can least afford it to, and I believe that if I find this person, I can do all that.
But I don't even know where to start.
So... if anyone knows someone who fits this description...
Black/Dreadlocks/About 5' 4"/Thin-ish frame/Blue eyes/Right-handed/Good singing voice(?)
Knit hats/Sweats/Fingerless gloves/Boots/Any pants that look cool/Hooded jackets/Nothing with buttons on it –thinks polos are really stupidPersonality & Skills
Anything at all like me/Writer-Artist [can write and draw well-enough, but can't think of a good starting point or structure]
...you'll let me know?..
...Maybe I need more help than I thought.